My story
The first steps
There comes a time in every child’s life when they stand up and set off. After the first uncertain steps, they fall. Then they try again. And again. Then, during one of these attempts, they fall and hurt themselves, and for a while it takes the heart out of them. But then they pull themselves together and try once more.
“You can do it!”
…the inner voice cheers them on. And it’s true!! The child knows and believes they can do it… that they can stand up… that by placing their tiny feet one after the other, with enough practice, they will soon be walking.
Well, it is just the same for us adults… because this little child lives in us, too… only perhaps, after the bad experiences of the years, our belief fades a little that we can do it, that we are capable of it, that we can set off.
We know, we feel that the time has come. We ought to take the leap, because what is blocking us inside won’t let us walk on along our path. We can’t put it off any longer!
We take the first steps… and plop back down. Worse still, we really hurt ourselves.
Staying on the ground… that’s safe – we know that by now – …or trying again… but what if I hurt myself again? …I really should try again… and this is when it helps – just as it does for a small child – if someone is there with us.
Someone who encourages and supports us. Whose hand we can hold for a moment if we wobble too much, who holds us steady until we find our balance again… until we experience that yes, we are able to stand. To set off. To stop again if we need to, and then step on once more, moving… forward.
I have fallen many times, too… and many times I set off again... and again.
With a degree in economics, years spent abroad, hardships, losses and serious illnesses behind me, I began studying Sherpa coaching, fairy-tale constellation facilitation, and family and systemic constellations at nearly forty.
Because, fortunately, the child in me wouldn’t let me rest until I stood up and kept on trying. And after the toddling, today I march confidently forward, so that I can gain ever broader knowledge of the mysteries of the human soul and of how it is reflected on the physical plane, and pass this knowledge and experience on to others.
If you feel the time has come for you to set off, too, take the first steps of change – of your walk towards yourself – with me! I will accompany and support you, so that after the uncertainty of those first steps you can walk your own path with ever more confident strides.
Mónika Juhász